I Carry Your Heart

I Carry Your Heart With Me by E. E. Cummings

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in
my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere
I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

Love is an astounding thing. In reality it's not a "thing" at all. Love isn't something that we acquire by force, trade or borrow; it's an action, a beautiful gift, an unconditional emotion.

You cannot barter love, you cannot bargain...it simply...in it's finest form...just is. It is a cycle of life ebbing and flowing from relationship to relationship but ever the same fueling the heart. It is immeasurable. It grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide.

I have learned (from valuable experience) that love, sacrificial love, is a beautiful blessing given from our Father. He desires to show us pure godly love, tangibly, through relationships here. I have felt such wonderful love from so many people. My husband, of course, is one of the most fantastic source of this. My family and friends are another. As my beautiful sister Charese shared with me, there are no boundaries to family. Blood is not an obstacle. I pray that everyone can feel such a welcoming, unconditional, unbridled love as I get to experience. I am spoiled!

Give thanks to the God of gods. His love endures forever. - Psalm 136:2

I have witnessed the bond of marriage drastically influencing the proverbial line in the sand amongst biological separation of God's children. My biological family is on a slightly different plane spiritually than my wedded family is. Through the love of the Lord influence has been delightfully made with all involved. My dad frequently quotes my amazing brother, Sam. He has gleaned so much of the Lord's goodness through what Sam has openly shared publicly, and holds them dear as truth to characterizing "The Man Upstairs." It has been incredible to see two worlds merge as one blessed family. I am SO spoiled!

But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. - Psalm 13:5

I have discovered that love between spouses is the ordination of the Lord. I have wondered for years why I hadn't met the man of my dreams. I have wondered why I endured heartache after heartache all ending in similar demise. I have wondered why Mitch and I have been friends for almost a decade and I hadn't realized that he was that person I had been searching for. All of these questions, petty in reflection, are irrelevant yet entirely indicative of the Lord's divine intervention of our hearts and emotions.

Girls and guys alike: Know that God is above your emotions. He is sovereign over your heart's cries. He is empathetic of their groans. He cares. He hears you. (He) knows the way that (you) take; when He has tested (you), (you) will come forth as gold - Job 23:10. I, for years, thought that I could never find a person that loves me unconditionally, when had him under my nose for so long. I am confident in the fact that the Lord was protecting our hearts for unveiled love that could bloom to utmost potential. I had to have some experiences in order to fully appreciate the beauty of my relationship with Mitch. The very insecurities that I developed throughout my life have been addressed and obliterated byway of our Father working through my husband. We have both been tested and refined (continually) to someday become gold.

Be still and know...Stand firm in the fact that the Lord of lords knows your heart's desires intimately. His way is always unfathomably greater than our mind's elaborate schemes. I AM SO SPOILED!

I love the song by A Fine Frenzy, called " You Picked Me." It is a simple song that embodies how special we can feel when that special someone picks us. It's how I feel with Mitch. It also eloquently embodies the fact that God chooses us even when the world turns away.

One, two, three
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four, five, six
The two of us a perfect fit
You're all mine, all mine

And all I can say
Is you blow me away

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me

So softly
Rain against the windows
And the strong coffee
Warming up my fingers
In this fisherman's house
You got me
Searched the sand
And climbed the tree
And brought me back down

And all I can say
Is you blow me away

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me